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Rozaiman Bin Roza

2010-03-18T22:23:00.001+08:00

[ & his name is Rozaiman Bin Roza <3 ]

today is a special day for me . 180110 ? that was the day that i became his . the day that our heart join together to be one . he was a kind , friendly , caring , loving and funny person . he made my life brighter by making me laugh in the morning . he never fails to make me smile with his silly jokes . even when he is angry , he still make me smile . he was the person that really make me believe in myself . i can still remember every moment that we spent together laughing . you are very special my dear (: 187 ? that was the bus that we took when you ask me that special question . i know that i won't have to regret once i become yours . i can't forget the time in school when ue offered me to eat a chicken cause i have no money to eat . i blushed like a small girl . you really are a sweet person aiman . how i wish this was going to continue but then our faith change . we are now friends . im happy to still have you by my side . if can , i would like you to read this post because it is all about you . i would also want you to know that , i love you . i miss you so much ): i dare to swear that now im crying posting about you . you will always be my superman . remember that alright ? buhbye . take cares . i love you .

p.s; will be qoinq to malaysia for 3 days . back on sunday ):

Awsome ? I guess BAD !

2010-03-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

[ shasha , fazila & elisya my bitches >.< ]

i did have fun with my sayangs today at school but then i was sad all day long . girlfriend did not know cause i did not want to tell them . haish . life has been EXTREMELY hard for me now . i feel like just giving up . buhbye people . i want to sleep now . i love you .

ps; goodbye ? i sayang you .

Swing that swing darling (:

2010-03-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

[ it was just like in my dreams ]

see that picture up there ? love it right ? don't say that you hate it cause it is romantic & sweet . i guess their love are pure as ice . they must have love each other like hell . everyone who is in a relationship is like that . but guess what will happen it something bads happen ? don't wish to talk about it . after incidents happen , you tend to say that you hate love . i always say that too because i don't trust love . is was never about trusting love but to trust the other party and to believe in yourself . that is what i have learn the hard way . rejecting love is not a right choice because you are throwing away your chance to show your love to someone . one day later , you will be like me . [ a girl who don't trust love but wants it so badly but don't know what to do ] im so stupid ! -.- haish , when can i just think straight and follow the path that has been creating for me ? i hope i can wake up from my mistakes in life . i have no time to stop and correct my mitakes because time is always ticking away . there are many opportunities so we can't afforf to lose all of them . grab them by then hand ! hehehe , i love you .

p.s ; pizza say no . i think that i should listen to advices from people .

What I have been waiting for ..

2010-02-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

[ that pink rose ]

1 - get kissed in the rain

2 - have that one hot kiss where you're pressed against the wall

3 - have a guy that think you'te the world

4 - have a guy that hold on as long as possible when giving hungs

5 - a boy that whispers he love you in your ear

6 - have that moment wher you just gaze into each other's eyes

7 - when you cry , he kisses your tears away

8 - when you-re not with your guy he's all that you think about

9 - wearing his jacket and every time you breath in , his scent surronds you

10 - a guy who will watch any movie with you no matter how teary eyes you may get

11 - a guy who squeezes your hand

12 - a boy that says he loves you and means it

13 - a guy that will play her facourite song outside her window

14 - a guy who is loyal

15 - a guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it

16 - a guy that will kiss you on the forehead

17 - a guy that will call you beautiful or adorable .. not hot , fine or sexy

18 - a guy that will nver judge you for how you look

19 - a boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make you smile

20 - a boy that is the same when he is with you or his friends

21 - a boy that tells you everything honestly

22 - a boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family

23 - a guy that will always let you win

24 - a guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against

25 - a guy who calls you at night just to say 'hi' and see how your days has been

26 - a boy who tells you that yor smile makes his day and makes everything better

27 - a boy who will sit on the ohone with you when you're sad , even is you're quiet

28 - a boy who you can hangout and have fun with

29 - a boy that will randomly call you for no reason at all , just because he missed you

30 - a guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life

31 0 a guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance

32 - a guy who wouldn't mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him

33 - even if he says he like you btter without make up

34 - a guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amzing to him

35 - a guy who runds his fingers through your hair , like he's washing your worries/troubles away

i guess that is what all girls would want their love ones to do . when can i ever experience all that ? ahahhs , very funny nanan ! you must wait long2 suah . goodbye people , i love you .

ps; love is all that i want

In My Head

2010-02-21T15:21:00.000+08:00

[ it was same as what i dream ]

i guess now i don't have any shoulder to lean on when i cry . haish , is all over ? i guess that my fairytale has ended . superman has gone to other fairytale to save his princess . have a save journey superman . hmm , i guess for now i have enough of love . everytime i see it , i want it but then im scared of the consiquences . i guess i have to take the risk in life . someone taught me that but now , he is different . haish , i miss the old youu seriously . okay thats it . i have no more mood to post . my heart just ache alot this few days . haish . i love you .

p.s ; who can i lean on when im crying ? breaking down .

unlucky day f0rh Nanan & Faz ..

2010-02-17T20:41:00.001+08:00

heyl0 readers ! Fazila here .. currently helping Nanan t0 update her bl0g ..

hmmphh .. t0day's day started wif laughters and n0ises .. nyaharhs ! t00k 187 t0 sch and met Nanan & Elisya in the bus .. naseb jumperhy d0rang kt dlm bus .. Aftr tht st0pped 0utside int. dhen g0 t0 sch take 77 and blablabla .. lazy t0 elab0rate .. narieq gerek c0z Ms P00rany taq dtg .. tpy kene uat essay uhq .. Kec0h2 .. Elisya mul0t bising .. kec0h gylerhy tuhh kecieq .. 0rg seb0k buwatt essay , dyerh seb0k msgg2 .. nyaharhs !

dhen gt MT dhen recess .. Recess paling i l0ike ! Nanan cnt st0p saying "siva ajak kuar" .. she repeated it smpai luhh kiterhy pergi maths less0n .. cute luhh dyerh .. hehs ! gt chemistry aft tht tpy cekgu p0n taq dtg .. dhen gt ge0 .. always b0red in class .. tpy Nanan n Elisya was laughing2 .. they had fun .. weird ? they always seemed tired during ge0 . bg0s luhh tuhh .. lpass tuhh aderhy assembly .. tuhh part paling sedehy f0rh me .. haishh .. cnt take it .. dun wanna elab0rate .. lpas assembly gy canteen relek2 dulu b4 g0ing f0rh maths LSP .. dlm class me , Elisya & Nanan dud0k t0gether buwatt wrksht cekgu bagi .. susah gylerh .. Nanan n me was like s0 stress d0ing th0se questi0ns .. ALGEBRA agyk tuhh ! i dun like ! Elisya was the smartest .. dhen Nanan get t0 catch up wif her dhen they buwatt n discuss t0gether .. i was the 0nly 0ne left 0ut .. muahaha ! Faz taq pandai dlm Algebra lurh .. hehs ! but luckily i 0nly nid t0 d0 smpai qs. 3 the 0thers naq kene buwatt smpai qs. 4 c0z qs.4 was f0rh smarter students .. dhen dh abes i went h0me first met my friend kt int. Nanan n Elisya went h0me taking 963 i think .. kayy luhh thts all yeah ? gt n0thing much t0 talk .. tata ! ;DDD

You are AMAZING

2010-02-15T15:43:00.002+08:00

[ statue , stuck staring at you ]

this post is for my dearest farhan . he is my junior (: treat her well alriqht boy ? make sure you follow all the things that ue need to do aites ? last long ;D

1 - touch her waist

2 - talk to her

3 - share secrets

4 - give her your jacket

5 - kiss her slowly

6 - hug her

7 - hold her

8 - laugh with her

9 - invite her somewhere

10 - let her be with you when you are with your friends

11 - smile with her

12 - take pictures with her

13 - pull her onto your lap

14 - when she say she love you more , deny it . fight back

15 - when her friends say i love her more then you , deny it . fight back and hug her tight so that she can't get to her friends . it makes her feel love

16 - always hug her and say i love you whenever you see her

17 - kiss her unexpectedly

18 - HUG HER FROM BEHIND AROUND THE WAIST

19 - tell her she's beautiful not sexy

20 - tell her the way you feel about her

21 - kiss her on the lips

22 - kiss her on the forehead

23 - kiss her on top of her head

24 - make her feel love

25 - we might deny it but we actually like and kinda want you to get us things

26 - DON'T LIE TO HER

27 - DON'T CHEAT ON HER

28 - take her anywhere she wants

29 - text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school and how much you miss her

30 - be there for her whenever she needs you and even when she doesn't need you . just be there so she'll know that she can always count on

31 - hold her close when she's cold and she can hold ue too

32 - when you are alone hold her close and kiss her

33 - kiss her on the tip of her nose (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them)

34 - while in the movie , put your arms around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder , then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly

35 - don't ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad . if she's upset , comfort her

36 - when people diss her , stand up for her

37 - look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her

38 - lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart . link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you

39 - when walking next to each other grab her hand

40 - when you hug her , hold her in your arms as long as possible

41 - call her at night to wish her sweet dreams

42 - confort her when she cries and wipe away her tears

43 - take her for long walks at night

44 - dedicate a song to her

45 - always remind her how much you love her

46 - when you and her are just starting to go out , get her flowers and surprise her

school will start in 2 days timem . i need to finish up all the homework soon cause don't want to rush time. im missing my superman ! anyway , i miss elisya , fazila , atasha , adilla , aizat & ahmad too ! they are the people that never fail to make me laugh like hell im class . i love 2E1' ! buhbye people . i love you (: i hope that this can help farhan and his babygirl to last long . need any help then just find me . i will always be there to help you dearest junior

p.s 3 more days (:

Happy Friendship & Valentines Day

2010-02-14T19:41:00.000+08:00

[ dian sophia binte abdul rahman ]

happy friendship & valentines day people ! (: i know that i have not been updating . see my picture up there ? i love my hair but i wish that it could be lonqer . but then i have to wait for at least a few months . haiyoo . lets talk about yesterday cause i have nothing to say . wake up at 9am cause mama ask to go doctor to get medicine . register then had to wait for 2hours . omG ! doctor say that my blood pressure went down again . haiyoo nanan , ue need to take care of yourself tau . doctor gave me antibiotics that need to be finish , flu medicine , cough syrup and fever medicine . quickly went home and call elisya . told her to get ready cause we are going out soon . so meet up with elisya at cck . then we meet fazila at great wall . she was with asyraf and hafiz sec 4 . we waited for shasha and shahir . shahir came and shasha call elisya . she will be late cause she is 'caught' with her father . while waiting for her , we went to play guitar hero . sumpah , i suck at it cause dh lamerh taq maen . ahahhs , then meet up with shasha . after that we went to mcdonalds to eat lunch . have to say that it was damn funny being with them . ue guys make me laugh like hell i tell'ya (: then after that shahir and shasha went to west coast first them me , fazila and elisya went back to woodlands to qet DSLR and elisya wanted to chanqe . on the way to woodlands , i mcq superman . i wanted to meet him for awhile . so while elisya and fazila take the thinqs , i meet up with superman . omG , i miss him so much . so we manaqe to chat for awhile . superman say that when im in school i look decent and when im using home clothes , i look different . ahahhs , aperhy jerh superman nieq (: after that he sent us to bustop . before going i hug him first . gonna miss him so badly . so we rush to west coast . walk walk walk , complain of the heat . it was damn fcuking hot i tell you . can't tahan . then shasha and shahir went back home while me , elisya and fazila went to McCafe to cool ourself . order cheesecake and mango smoothies . after that we went to take 176 . ahahhs , i was sleeping the whole journey . to me , the journey was damn short but then fazila said that it was long . so then change to 985 and went to Lot 1 and shop at Cotton On . i swear that all the clothes nearly 'run out' serious , we are sad cause the things that we want don't have already ): after that took lrt home and rest . it was fun i tell you . yeah , i want to eat my mcdonald , buhbye people . i love you .

p.s happy valentines day bby !

I'm Always Making Mistakes ):

2010-02-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

[ he will always be my baby ]

im going to update my blog before resting . i ask baby to update for me but he can't cause he cannot log in into blogger . terpaksa i update myself . hmm , so i spent one whole day on the computer and chatting . my eyes is going to get worse i tell you . anyway , i will be going to malaysia for 3 days during the chinese new year . i will miss you guys so much . when chatting with baby , we had abit of argument . im always making mistake . i hate myself for being so stupid ! im always making trouble and im never perfect in anyway . i hope that i will change my atitude cause i don't like to see baby being angry . anyway , i trust you so i won't think negative alright ? no matter what i see or i hear , i will always trust you . anyway , should i go to school tomorrow ? im sick and i want to rest but then i need to be in school . i can't afford to miss any lessons. i hope that i can qet well before school start tomorrow . im going to rest cause im sick . baby is going to scold me if i never rest so buhbye . i love you .

ps; i want no more arqument . please ):

Is it true ? ):

2010-02-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

[ ue made me addcited ]

it has been days since i update this blog of mine . hehehe , is still alive yea know . hmm , many things had happen these few days . don't wish to elabotare though . anyway , shasha say to me that my relationship with superman 'retak' . haiyoo , why sehy ? to me is still as per normal then why ue say like that ? that is making me scared sia . hmm , i believe that it is not true cause i love my superman no matter what happens . yes , we have problem but then still we are together . i hope that no one else will say things like that cause seriosly im scared . buuhbye people , take cares . i love you . i want to sleep . good night , sweet drems , cuddle up tite ;D

ps; superman , i will always love you ~180110~

I'm Going To Change For The Better

2010-01-31T17:28:00.000+08:00

[ is going to be same no matter what happens ]

it has been days since i update my blog . omG ! i miss it so much . heheheh . anyway , 2 more days yeah . current temperature is 38 . i want to get temperature down so tomorrow i can go to school . i want to change for the better in me . i want to be a good person for my superman . i want him to be happy with who he choose . anyway , get well soon sayang .

ps;i want the best for all of us

Funny & Tiring Day

2010-01-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

[ he will always be my superman ]

wake up as per normal and took the lrt . meet elisya at woodlands as per normal . while walking , as usual we will always talktalktalk . then waited for hadi and aiman near the 963 stand . hadi arrived first then aiman . took the single bus . reach school and meet up with fazila . attend morning assembly as per normal . nothing much happen in school just that the fact that we laugh like hell at the canteen . we know , you don't know . ahahhs . sumpah kekek ! after that on the way to english , ahmad hit my leg sampai tersujut di lantai depan sec 1 . malu oi . tak kesah malu tapi sumpah saket . very the ouch ouch och ! ahahhs . never marah him cause he always make people laugh . after school went to woodlands to sent elisya . currently chatting with aiman . im going to do homework after this . lazy sehy . have maths and malay . i got to go . byebye . i love you .

ps:cried during malay when cikgu muslin ask to baca surah al-fateha.

Birthday Celebration

2010-01-24T19:01:00.000+08:00

see that pretty girl up there in black ? hehehe , is going to be her birthday tomorrow ! yeah ! she is going to turn to 14 years old . ahahhs , she becoming 'kakak2' already . tomorrow i will give ue a birthday hug when i see you . daer , im sorry if i can't buy any birthday gift for you because im currently broke . don't worry , you will get your gift when i get back my money . tomorrow will be going school with superman and powerpuff girl couple . ahahhs , meeting elisya at woodlands at 0545 . hope that i won't be late yeah . going to finish up my maths homework now . choaw people . i love you !

ps;superman,we must get the BIG one okay?share money (:

Superman & Powerpuff Girl ;D

2010-01-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

it has been long since i update my blog yeah ? ahahhs , been busy and tired lately so don't mind . these pictures really just discribe my life nowdays . i have been spending my time with superman and powerpuff girl couple . they really just make me happy nowdays . i so love you guys very much . fazila's birthday is coming on 250110 . want to buy her a gift but i have no money . maybe later i ask my aunty for money . hopefully she will give me so that i can buy for fazila her present . anyway , im birthday is also coming soon on 020210 ! you guys better give me present aites ? hehehe , im so joking ! i hope that my happiness will keep on going and there will be no fight . i love my superman !

ps; 130110 & 180110 last long yeah !

Please don't leave me !

2010-01-16T22:13:00.001+08:00

please don't say goodbye to me . i can't accept the fact that you would have to leave me just like that . even though we knew each other not a long time , you mean something to me . i don't want to lose you cause , cause , cause i love you . you are the person that made me smile and laugh in the morning . i need you here to make me happy . i can't imagine what will happen if you were not there with me . how am i supposed to make myself happy ? i can't be happy without you . please ! don't say goodbye to me . if you are reading this post , i don't want you to cry like the way i am crying now . i just hope that this message will make you realised that i need you . my teards can't stop flowing down my eyes .

<3 MR.LOLIPOP<3

ps; what will happen to me when you are no longer around?

L-O-L-I-P-O-P !

2010-01-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

[ lolipop is my addiction drug ]

today went to school with elisya , hadi , aiman and taqim again . it was a load of fun going with them . it make me no regrets for coming to woodlands at 0545 . so first thing was to meet up with elisya then we went to buy LOLOPOPS . me & elisya bought 4 lolipops each . ahahhs , well what to say , it was our favourite cause aiman made us addicted to it . after buying , then we went to wait for the 2 people to come . hehehe , hadi naq prank elisya tapi taq menjadi liow ! wakaka . before they came , nanan tutup mata jap , dh bukak mata trus nmpk muka hadi nqan aiman . hehehe . after that we took 963 and sit at the last row as per normal . hehehe , kecian aiman kena ddq sebelah banqla . then i ask aiman to choose 1 lolipop then he take my strawberry ! ): , ahahhs kita qadoh psl lolipop mcm biasa . i swear that the bus is damn cold . he offered his hoddy but i reject cause takut dierh sejuk plaq nnt . at the bus , we keep on laughing ang laughing as per normal . reach bus stop but then the bus driver go close the door . haiyooh , hehehe . went down to the next bus stop and walk to the rc to meet fazila . before breakinq our path , i gave aiman another lolipop . happy taq ? hehehe , meet fazila & izzul and went to school as per normal . reached school then went to the toilet . tied up our hair and talk talk . before leaving , we salam kak aicha , kak denna , kak afikah , kak mardhiana , kak fazeera and some more but i forget who . hehehe , after that we went to look for seri . that really make our blood boil sehy ! after that school start as per normal . don't wish to talk about school things as is bored ! after school , we went to look for seri again but then she went home already . we ask people for her number but they never gave . haiyoo , you guys made fazila cried ! oh my god ! after that i went home myself . reached home , bath and sleep . wake up then text with aiman for awhile . now he is sleeping cause he is tired . kecian aiman . later when he wake up then we will continue . today was hell of fun with elisya , hadi and aiman ! hope that it will last ! buhbye people , i love you .

ps;the way you make me smile and laugh.i will never forget.

963 , running & laughter !

2010-01-13T19:39:00.000+08:00

These are the pictures that really discribe my day.

I can say that today I was reply happy.

Well, many things happen today.

So I went to Woodlands and meet up with Elisya.

Sorry if I was 1 minute late.

Haha, after that we went to look for lolipop for Aiman.

Elisya needed to buy for him because of me.

After finding one then we sit at 963 stand.

It was painful as we are having stupid stomach cramps.

Then Hadi message Elisya saying that all of them were going to be late.

What?!

We semangat datang cepat then you late?

Apadah, hehe.

After few minutes later, they came and we waited for the bus.

It was the single 963 bus!

I like the double better.

So we sit arranged to Elisya, Hadi, Nanan and Aiman.

Many things happen in 963 and I would have say that it made my day.

Elisya and Hadi, you guys saw how happy I was right?

Keep it to yourself alright?

Ohya, I saw what you guys did to.

Haha, I'm happy for you guys.

Any problems then tell me alright?

I will always be there to settle your problem for you.

Then walk to school and went to the toilet.

Attended morning assembly then in was PE afterwards.

I swear that it was a torture to our legs and stomach.

After PE we fell like fainting.

Stupid much.

Then it was Physics.

It was hell I say.

After that was recess and we had the same timing with Hadi.

We eat burger and drink soya bean.

Stupid match cause it make all of us wanting to go to toilet.

After recess was english.

English was kinda funny as Nanan & Elisya's head hit each other.

Then it was Geography and it was sleepy.

Feel like sleeping but then I want to study so keep my eyes open!

Then it was assembly and I had to go home alone.

Again!

Haha, so went home with Wei Ching.

Reach home eat medicine and then sleep.

I'm going to do homework later.

So tomorrow plan again to go school with Hadi, Elisya, Aiman and Mustaqim maybe.

See ya people soon!

PS:elisya,is it wrong for my heart to say that?!?help me!!!

it was never easy to get far

2010-01-07T17:49:00.000+08:00

[ will my road be empty without love? ]

It has been few days after school re-open.

On the first day, I saw you smiling to me.

I was happy to see you having a bright smile on your face.

I know once I tell that someone, it means that I will have to keep it low.

Is it wrong to fall in love with you?

I feel wrong but then I love you too much to even let you go.

You really are someone important in my life.

You gave me happiness and brought light to my darkness.

I was able to smile again when you make me laugh.

It was 'you' who I fall in love with.

But then, I know that I have to accept the fact that she is there also.

Must I do this again?

Must I really just forget about my own happiness again?

Would you forget about me?

I guess that will be the most hardest fact to accept.

All these while I was deeply crying inside.

I just don't want you to know that as I want you to be smiling guy that made my heart melt.

I just hope that you will never forget me in life cause I won't forget you.

I love you.

PS: when will i able to fall in love without any interuptions?

memorable day with S/R/Z . love you guys

2009-12-23T14:32:00.000+08:00

[favourite picture of the day.ramadhan,zaimi,shasha,nanan]

221209, qerek lurh sehy!

So I went to Shasha's crib and take her.

Before going out her crib, Ayul gave me a Mikey Mouse sticker without 1 leg.

Ahahhs, cute sehy Ayul.

After that we walk to West Mall then terserempak with Siti and Liyana.

Nanan quickly change then went to change money.

After that quickly went to Bukit Batok MRT and took the train to Jurong.

Reached Jurong then the door cannot open?

Whah sehyy, then we used other door.

Train to City Hall was quick so we reached City Hall around 0230.

Butbutbut something happen before we went out of City Hall.

Nanan & Shasha saw Hasif.

Shasha shout his name and he turn back but then he just walk away.

Shasha dh kancong betol.

We went out of the tapping thing then meet up with Ramadhan and Zamie.

So we walk together to Penisular cause Dhan and Mie wanted to look at shoes?

Ahahhs.

We did something.

We know, public see, you don't know.

After that we went to McDonald to eat.

Zamie did not eat and I don't know why.

He just sat outside and wait.

Kecian dierh ):

During eating, Dhan & Shasha made me laugh like hell.

I love you guys for that!

After that we went to Esplanade.

Walkwalk here, laughlaugh there.

We went to the rooftop.

Lawar you know the scenery.

Then heard music and Ramadhan & Zaimie started to dance.

Shasha & Nanan keep on laughing.

After that we do something, public see, you don't know.

See most of our time there.

Dhan & Shasha sit one sit and do whatever they wanted.

You guys no need to know lurh kn?

Nanan look out and Zaimie sat down and look at his book.

Zaimie, I saw what you draw inside your book.I saw a girl.She means someone special to you rite?

On that moment, everyone was sad and started to emo alone.

Then blablabla, don't want to elaborate about emo things.

After that we walk to the War Memorial thingy.

Sat down and Dhan & Zaimie played in the water.

Shasha & Nanan laugh again like hell.

We started to take photos again.

Took 1 group photo and I love it!

After that we decided to go home cause it was late already.

Had a bit of difficulty but end up we solved it.

In the train, Zaimie stand one corner, Nanan stand another corner, Shasha & Dhan stand in the middle and hug each other.

Aww, so sweet!

Zaimie & Nanan listen to music.

When reaching Jurong, Nanan cried.

Oh my god!

Did not wanted to do that but this tears just can't keep going down.

Shasha, thanks for cheering me up.

That is what happen on 221209.

On that night, something miracle did happen to Dhan & Shasha.

Congrats yeah, last long!

PS: S/R/Z!i want another outing aqain please!

i've lost everything in 1 shot ? fcuk .

2009-12-20T14:33:00.001+08:00

[where are you?i have lost you.please come back]

Is over.

Everything has ended and I lost it.

Goodbye to everything.

Your sweet memories will always be in my heart.

Farewell dearest.

PS:gurlfriends,quh dh hilanq eriq.i need you to cheer me up.please!

buhbye ? i gave up . im swy goodbye

2009-12-19T23:08:00.000+08:00

[can i have a fresh start from now onwards?i will try it hard]

Love?

I have just gave up on it already.

Where can I find love when no ones show it to me truthfully?

What's the point if you say things to me but don't mean it?

Empty words right?

How am I going to trust other people after what you did to me?

It will be hard for me and that person.

I can't blame anyone but just myself for believing in love.

But now I know that I need time to heal up all the pain and suffering.

Starting from now on, I will be quiet.

I will not be active anymore so don't try to find me.

To my dearest girlfriends, I'm sorry if I did not chat with you guys.

I had my reasons and I don't want any of you to be sharing my burden.

But no matter what it is, you guys will always be my gurlfriends and I love you.

I will never forget you guys ever in my life.

Goodbye.

[i'm sorry,goodbye]

sebelum bertemu denqanmu

diriku bahaqia

semenjak bertemu denqanmu

ku makin bahaqia..semakin lama aquh

semuakin tau tentanq enqkau

sedikit kecewa

ternyata enqkau taq baek

pertama tama semua manis

yanq enqkau berikan

membuat aquh merasakan

cinta sebenarnya..semakin hari

semakin terunqkap

yanq sesunqquhnya

kumakin kecewa

ternyata kau penuh dusta

maafkan ku harus perqy

ku taq suka denqan ini

aqu taq bodh

seperti kekasihmy yanq lain..

terimah kasih oh Tuhan

tunjukkan siapa dia

maaf kita putus

so thank you so much

i'm sorry goodbye

seribu cara kao membuat

ku denqan puitis

tapi kao lupa bahawa

ku juqa manusia

yanq punya mata

perihnya hati dan perasaan

maad aqu perqy

dan takkan untukmu laqy

(i'm sorry good bye)

ku tak suka denqan ini

aqu taq bodoh

maafkan quh harus perqy

tak seperti kekasihmu yanq lain

terimakasih oh Tuhan

tunjukkan siapa dia

maaf kita putus

so thank you so much

I'M SORRY GOOD BYE

PS:can the word goodbye be erase away from my head and heart?i dun want to hear it anymore.

speechlesss ?

2009-12-18T17:29:00.000+08:00

Life still has to go on. Right?

Whatever happens, I know that I can still coun on you.

That is what people will say when you are down.

But only some people will really mean it.

Shasha, she is one of them whon really mean it.

Shasha, thanks for the cheer up just now.

Luckily you chatted with me.

That problems we just keep quiet okay?

Just like what 'he' say, karma.

Believe in it and good things will be in line for us.

I thought that my happiness is started to increse but then the red light shows.

Shasha, you know what I mean right?

So yeah now I just want to meet girlfriends.

I miss them so much, really. I swear.

Did you guys forget about me?

Read your blog and you guys seem to have fun with each other.

Haish, is okay.

I understand.

Anyway, things are never ever going to be the same anymmore.

Life is going to change no matter what I do.

Why am I sounding so emo?

Well, I guess love has really change me into someone like these.

Anyway, you can't force me to do anything that I don't want.

It is the way that I want to lead my life and you can't change it.

I hope you understand.

All decisions I made is for my own and maybe your own good.

Please don't feel that I'm talking about 'you' if I did not mention your name.

Well again, Shasha thanks alot for everything babe. I love you so much.

So Im going to post tomorrow, maybe.

Hopefully tomorrow mummy&daddy would go to SPCA for cat adoption.

Take care people.

PS: i will always be here.whatever happens,you know that im here.i will not run away

time going tick tock

2009-11-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

I know that I have not been posting for days.

I have been busy lately.

My time have been busy with alot of appointment.

Hehehes.

Woke up at 0830 because need to accompany Sister to Greenridge to repair PSPs.

Woke up then quickly go toilet.

Sumpah shial masehy nqantok gylerh.

Yesterday sleep at 0500 plus in the morning.

Wake up then head spinning like hell.

Walk to Greenridge then found out that shop only operated at 1100.

So we decided to walk to Bangkit.

Journey long shial!

Tiring.

After finishing everything, went home and rest.

So today's plan was to meet up with Eriq!

Yeah, happy sehy.

So at 1200 I message him.

Never reply then at 1210 then he reply.

Katerh dierh aru angun.

Hehehe.

Then after that dierh tanyerh klau aquh dh makan ke blum.

Aperhy laqy sehy tarq makan lurh.

Dh 2 hari sehy tarq makan.

Gerek plaq.

Wakaka!

Before that, fight with adeq again.

Haish, stress lurh have sister.

Then went to Bukit Panjang Interchange as normal.

Sit down and take a breath because feel like dying.

Then suddenly saw Shahir, mataer Shasha.

Then message Shasha lurh.

Behy aleh aleh dnqr ornq swit.

Pusing behy nmpk Shasha.

Aperhy laqy lurh , lari trus hug kuat kuat!

Shasha quh dh semakin hawt lurh dierh.

HawtPinkFreak lurh.

Then she perm her hair.

Lawar lawar.

Quh pun perming my hair but then different style.

Shasha buat normal perm but then I'm doing Ceremic Perm.

Shasha, dun marah aites.

I hope you dun think that I'm following you.

After that Eriq came.

Ruperhy ruperhy nyerh Shahir kenal nqan Eriq lurh.

Ahahhs, basuh lurh tu.

Then all four of us walk together.

Then Shasha want to buy air.

So aperhy laqy lurh , Nanan belanja my sayang.

Dierh beli Strayberry Youghurt then semua jln kt tasik.

Then semua split up.

Shasha nqan Shahir then Nanan nqan Eriq .

Many things happen so dun want to elaborate lurh.

Tomorrow going out withh Nyayi.

Yeah!

Buying alot of things yeah , i dun care!

Nike slippers !

I want that and I dun fcuking care .

Buhbye people, take cares.

PS; eriq macehy for the necklace!seriously,dun go away please.i need you here with me!

Can't stop laughing !

2009-11-25T21:10:00.000+08:00

Today woke up early due to little sister.

Bising siak narq aderhy kawan.

Haiyoo, hehehe.

Anyway, lucky that she wake me up cause I need to meet up with Eriq.

Planned to meet up at 0200 at Bukit Panjang Interchange.

Around 0100 plus adeq don't me go out.

She was sitting over me just to keep me in the house so that she can play with me.

Ahahhs, apadah azura nieq.

Kecho lurh.

Then I say to her if she let me go then I buy for her milktea.

She agree lurh kan (:

Bargin with that little kid is hard people , trust me.

So quickly bath and went out of the house at 0140.

Reached Bukit Panjang Interchange exactly at 0200.

Message Eriq and he said that he is on his way.

Ahahhs, then listen to music while wait for him.

Then he arrived in red t-shirt.

First impression 'whoah,he is cute shiak'!

Hehehe.

Then we walk walk to find a place to lepak.

While walking, we passed by a house.

People inside all karaoke tau.

Then i say ' ornq nieq semua nyanyi conferm ribut nyerh '

Then he say ' ue , manerh tawuq hujan ? skali teranq baru tawuq '

Ahahhs , we look at each other and laugh.

Kekek much!

Then after found a spot to lepak, we sit and chat chat chat.

Had a long and yet nice chat with him.

Eriq going to Serawak for his takraw training.

Not fair cause he say over there can watch sunset.

Nanan want to see also lurh!

Bring me there can? Hehehe.

After had chat then he accompany me to Bukit Panjang Plaza.

I bought 2 Milktea. One for me and the other for that little kid at home.

Then when buying, I terserempak with Amok.

Naseb dierh tarq nmpk aquh nqan Eirq.

After that we walk off.

Then had this conversation with Eriq.

Nanan: ue narq i teman ue sampai bus dtnq tarq?

Eriq: ahahhs.tarq payah lurh ue.

Nanan: aik!dh baqush tau i narq teman ue then ue tarq narq.

Eriq: i blehy qy sendiri.
Nanan: tapi i narq teman ue lurh,please.

Eriq: tarq payah.i jln nqan ue sampai trafic liqht depan jerh ohaky?

Nanan: hmm,ohkay lurh (smiles)

Then I laugh to myself.

Gylerh katerh kn , ehky bukan qylerh tapi sewel.

After meetinq Eriq then hang out at Zahidah's crib.

Dierh katerh yq rumah dierh mcm hotel.

Ornq masuk kluar bilerh bilerh dierh ornq narq.

Ahahhs , tapi mcm best qitu.

Hmm , thats all lurh for the post today.

Post tomorrow.

Anyway, good luck for all my dearest and lovely p6 batch tomorrow.

PSLE RESUTLS RELEASE!

PS: eriq!next time kiterh kena meet laqy tau.i dun care.kiterh take pictures together blehy?hehehe:D

I really miss you ):

2009-11-24T19:00:00.001+08:00

So today was nothing special at all.

I woke up early today at 1030.

Hehehe, Nanan proud to wake up early tau.

Today I'm meeting with babes.

So after waking up, go bath.

After bathing then went to Zahidah's house to hang out for awhile.

She have not change clothes yet?!

Haiyoo Zahidah nieq.

Then Sabrina called Zahidah's house and said that she is waiting under the block.

So we quickly pack off and went downstairs.

Sabrina was with her adek.

Her adek damn cute shiak.

Then sent her adek home and went to Bukit Panjang Plaza.

At there, Sabrina blanja us Naked Fish Express lurh.

Sedap!

I eat seafood baked rice while she and Zahidah eat fish baked rice.

After eating, Sabrina told me that she was meeting her boyfriend.

Then we went back to Zahidah's house to wait for her boyfriend.

Wait wait then go down to lepak.

Semua ber-romance.

Mata dian saket shiak, belum laqy season.

When I'm with babes or girlfriends, all talk about boyfriends.

You guys, don't talk about boys can?

Im the only one single then you guys can still talk about your mataer.

Nanan saket hati shiak.

Baru break lagy.

Haish.

Don't want to elaborate anymore lurh.

Nanan no mood already.

Tomorrow meeting up with Eriq at Bukit Panjang Interchange.

Can't wait to meet up with him lurh.

Choaw people.

PS; yeahyeah.nanan qet to meet eriq at last.hehehe,qoinq to have a happy time.pictures yeah!

Can't stop smiling :D

2009-11-23T16:20:00.000+08:00

I'm stucked at home doing nothing.

Mummy say that I can't go out because need to buy for adeq books.

Haiyoo, adeq nieq ehky buat ornq ddq umah jerh.

Never mind, at least at home can play daddy's lappy.

Ahahhs.

So today just plan to elaborate what happen on GFs outing.

Meet Elisya at CCK.

We are supposed to meet at 0945 but then she came earlier.

Whiey, when need going out ue come early then when going school ue late.

Apadah, hehehe.

After that took the train and meet Fazila at Bukit Gombak.

On that day, Fazila never late.

Heyy, why ue guys only early when going out ahh?

Haiyoo. :D

After that went to Bukit Batok to meet Nurai and Atasha.

Sit at Great Wall to wait for them.

I texted Atasha while Elisya text Nurai.

Nurai was waiting for the bus so she abit late.

Atasha?

Hehehe, that girl never reply so we guess that she was late.

Yeah, few minutes later Nurai arrived.

Ahahhs, me and Nurai are using Roxy t-shirts.

Jiwerh ahh babe!

Then suddenly all of us look at each other and say 'Atasha lambat'.

Hehehe, I swear that it was funny.

While waiting for her, we went to Value Dollar to buy snacks for later.

We bought 2 BIG packs of Twisties.

Elisya paid for that.

I paid for lychee drinks and Nurai paid for Wintermelon drinks.

Put everything in the back and walk to Great Wall.

Elisya called Atasha's house and her mother say that she went out already.

So sit at Great Wall and few minutes later, Atasha arrived.

I damn miss her so much so I hug her lurh.

After that we took the MRT to Bedok.

It was packed and our bags are heavy but then no sits for us so we just stand.

I stand with Elisya and Fazila while Nurai stand with Atasha.

Took few photos.

I started to cry.

I'm sorry but then I just can't help it.

You guys keep talking about your boyfriends while I just had a break-up.

It really break my heart ue know.

Then girlfriends told me to calm down.

Thanks for your cares aites.

Reached Bedok and we were all laughing.

Wakaka, I swear that the operator said Bedok funny.

When reached, we look for bus 16.

It really feels that we are lost.

Sesat babe!

Then when taking the bus, we sit at the very front like ornq bodoh gitu.

Heheheh!

Then we ask a makcik where to get off the bus.

Baek makcik tu. Terima kasih ehky makcik.

When get off the bus, we were all looking for ECP like idiots.

I reapeat, IDIOTS!

Then we decided to ask people for directions.

I have to say that people in Bedok are nice.

Tarqmo kembang ehky.

Wakaka.

Do when reached, Fazila and Atasha went to change while me, Elisya and Nurai rent the bikes.

The bikes cost us $28.

Hmm , is kinda expensive but yet cheap.

Apadah dian nieq!

Then we took a pondok and put out things there.

Nurai and Elisya took the double bike while I took the single.

We roundinq for a while.

Hehehe.

Funny thing happen to Atasha.

'Baby'. Hehehe , won't talk about that yeah~

Then we decided to buy mcdonalds to eat.

Atasha, ue really make me laugh till I can't eat.

People falling down that you say 'mak' kuatkuat?

Apadah.

Burger narq masuk mulot pun susah.

After eatinq, we played in the sea.

Snap pictures here and there.

Jumpshot here and there to.

Nurai, I pity you.

Ahahhs, ue had to fall down with Atasha.

Then it started to rain.

We put our things and played in the rain.

People all started to run to our pondok?

Aik, koranq pikir free narq ddq tempat kiterh perhy.

Alamaq, hujan behy koranq laqy basar kn tempat kiterh?

Then one of us wanted to qo toilet so we ran to the toilet which was kinda far.

I keep on shoutinq cause I was happy to play in the rain.

Dian jakun katerh kn.

Then when runing back, Nurai scream Petir then Elisya run first to pondok.

Wakakak, sumpah kekek!

We then decided to play beach ball.

Jump in the puddle lurh oii.

Hehehe.

Rain started to reda then Elisya , Fazila and Nurai played the bikes while me and Atasha sit down.

We were shivering like hell I tell you.

Then decided to play beach ball aqain.

Then suddenly ader satuh group mat piyopiyo.

Ahahhs, bicycle lawar oii.

Hehehe.

Then we playing the ball, Atasha threw up high.

Then both of us look at the ball while running.

Tarq perasan then suddenly terhit each other trus jatuh dlm puddle.

Ahahhs , kekek!

Damn we decided to play in the sea.

Waited for the 3 of them so lonq shiak.

Then when playing, Nurai said that Elisya fall down.

I trus panic and run to her shiak.

Aik , mcm matear plaq dian nieq.

Kesian kaki dierh berdarah while Fazila pun samerh.

Hmm , this part tarq narq ckp psl painful.

Then lepad dh have fun semua, kiterh mandi lurh.

Behy mat piyopiyo nieq pun mandi juqak.

Heheheh.

Dpt 2 batanq lurh shiol.

Gerek kaperhy.

Then blablabla, dun want to elaborate.

Then we took the MRT and went home.

Girlfriends, I want another outing again!

Please!

I beg you guys.

More fun tau with you guys.

Wakaka!

Tired already to post.

Hehehe.

I will be posting another day then.

Choaw people!

I LOVE YOU! <3

PS; eriq,ue blum mcq me laqy.knaperhy?never mind.i wait for ue to mcq me ohkay?

The Best Unforgetable Experience With Girlfriends !

2009-11-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

These are the pictures that we took yesterday.

Im going to elaborate it tomorrow when I have the time.

Girlfriends, I so love you guys.

Another outing, I don't care yeah!

PS: im going to be sad when ue are qoinq trainiq Eriq..im qoinq to miss ue damn much!

Please,people .

2009-11-13T22:37:00.000+08:00

Heeya world !~

Here is Melia , Nanan's sister.

I'm posting though.

Heyy, I have been observing that Nanan have been trying to change her atitude.

Heyy, why is that so?

Do you people think that she is wrong in her way of atitude?

Yeahh, I do agree that she is too soft hearted.

I did try to change her to stand up strong but then she just can't do it.

What she needs to change is love from you guys but then you guys just blame her.

She is standing at a spot which is difficult in life.

She needs love but then people keep on pushing her away.

Do you guys know what she is feeling now?

She keep on crying everyday but she never ever shows anyone.

She want people not to worry about jer when she is worried about you guys.

Isn't that just fair?

All that she needs now is just love.

LOVE!

Can you please show her some love?

Ohyaa, this is her though "for all my friends,let me suffer alone"

Im off now, I dunno what to say anymore though.

Just have a heart to spare for her.

2009-11-13T15:15:00.002+08:00

Missing You

2009-11-08T19:45:00.002+08:00

These few days I have been just staying home or either meet sayangs.

Yeah, I suddenly feel that I’m not me.

I am really missing my friends.

Holidays?

Did it separate us from being together?

Usually we will hang out together over lunch.

But now, I guess that we are not that close anymore.

Does it mean that our friendship has end?

Please tell me that it has never end.

I swear over anything that I would never ever want to break our friendship.

When can we hang out together again?

I mean outing just girls?

Wouldn’t that be a nice thing to do?

Yeah girlfriends, we are so going out right?

Don’t worry I will be planning that outing soon.

Hope to see you soon sayangs!

Ouhya, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Love Kills

2009-11-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

Some people told me I shouldn't try
Because all you do is make me cry
But I love you to much to let you go
I love you more then you think you know
You tell me that you just don't care
All those times I needed you there
to hold me when I hurt real bad
to dry my tears, and take my sad
you can't understand how I feel inside
when it was over, I just died
All I want is for you to see
is what you really mean to me
Ever since that horrible day
that i heard those words you had to say
I can't stop thinking about you
I want you to know all this is true
Everything you've read
is about the things you've said
I'll never, ever stop trying
But I am so sick of Crying

I’m sick and tired of crying for days.

Why must I be the one who is suffering for you?

Scarifies something important to me just for you?

Why do I get back as a reward?

I get nothing but a broken heart.

Maybe this is my life that I have told to be leading.

Why for once I have a happy life with the people that I love?

Does all my relationship come to a bad end for me?

Must I be the one who loses in every fight?

Why am I to be like these?

Why can’t I be the one that for once be the winner and be happy?

Really in my life, I just want to have a pure love that can make me happy.

My wishes to those who are out there being happy please continue on.

To those who are in my position then I guess we are the victims.

I know how you guys feel because I’m experiencing it everyday.

Maybe crying is my next hobby because I have to do it everyday.

When will my tears be dried up?

Why does my body keep on having water to cry?

Please, I hope that love will not make me change to be a weaker seedling.

I want to stand up strong with you.

;love really kills me

2009-11-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

I know that I have not been updating my blog.

Yeah, I have to admit that I am lazy.

I don’t know what to say anyway.

Just want to express what I have to say.

Seriously, I give up on boys. Why do they hurt us? Yeah, maybe is because that hmm I am not sure too. Do they take me as a doll? I am not saying that all guys took me for a doll but why do most treat me as one? I have enough of this fucking business. It really hurts my heart when I have been taken advantage. Do I need boys in my life anymore? Yes, I still need them for love. Without them, how can I be in love? I know that I have my friends but then still, everyone need love. I just hope that the soft-hearted I will not be taken advantage off. I am tired of crying for them when they don’t care about me. I will just entertain those who are nice to me. I need to move on in life.

Short & Simple

2009-10-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

It has been days since I update my blog.

I am lazy to update because I am tired.

I am sorry for not updating yeah.

I will try to update properly once I have the mood.

P/S: Bby, do ue think I should pierce? I want ahh.

Problems & Funs

2009-10-17T21:55:00.012+08:00

Spammers these days are ridiculous.

Spam people’s blog like is a fun thing to do.

Enjoy spamming so much right?

What are you benefits from spamming people’s blog?

Don’t you guys just have other better things to do?

Does disturbing people’s life called a hobby?

Check up the internet!

Have the access but then used it for stupid things.

What do you feel to know that your blog has been spam?

Do spammers these days being entertain?

Deleting the messages and you keep on spamming?

Wow, is just impressing to see spamming.

Just keep on spamming till you are bored of it.

Why must you spam my blog?

Do your own blog and spam yourself till you are happy.

How about that?

If you spam, why don’t you just put your real name?

Scared it is?

If you are scared then don’t spam.

Seriously, spammers are not being entertained from me.

My blog is mine.

Looking back at the picture, don’t you miss the times that we spent together?

I really miss the times that we spent laughing together.

Getting scolded together was still the best part.

Never had I have a best friend just like you who can make me laugh.

But now, where have you gone?

Why have you been drifting apart from me?

We are not close anymore.

You are not there to attend to my problems.

You are not there to laugh with me at the jokes that we make.

You are not there for me to make laugh.

You are not you anymore.

You have change.

I know that you think that I am the one who has change.

Yes, I did change.

I change to be someone who is more emotional.

You know the love pain that I go through.

This is what happened to me.

But you change to be someone that never entertains me anymore.

You said that I was the one who change.

In what way did I change?

How come you did not tell me anything?

How do you expect me to change back when I don’t even know what is wrong?

Do you know that all these while I have been suffering?

Do you care about what I feel now?

Do you know the pain that I am going through now?

I know that everyone is suffering right now.

I know that you are also one of them.

Maybe, I can’t expect anything else from you.

I just hope that you can be the Izzul that I know.

You the disco ball in my club.

I miss you Izzul.

Pictures were taken when we were Bugis-ing!

Wow, I had fun with girlfriends!

Nothing can beat the fact that they are my best.

Think that you can break us apart?

Lanqkah mayat quhh dulu urh.

So the first thing, I meet Elisya at Choa Chu Kang.

After meeting up, we talk talk a lot.

Hahas, this is the thing that girls would do.

Then we took the train to Bukit Batok to meet Atasha.

As usual, she was late.

Atasha oh Atasha.

We went to the toilet to finish our looks.

Blablabla, then Atasha come.

We took some photos and then quickly leave the place.

We went to West Mall and play guitar hero.

Meet Fazila then.

After meeting Fazila, we meet up with Hafiz and friends.

Sorry guys cause we are rushing.

After everything, we went to Bugis.

I swear that it was chaotic man!

The fun is indescribable.

Whoah, that’s all that I have to say.

Time check: 11:10PM.

I need to be sleeping now.

Good night, sweet dreams and cuddle up for the cold night.

I love you!

A Fight ?

2009-10-15T19:19:00.007+08:00

Exam has ended.

Now, we can finally relax our mind and thoughts.

Even though examinations are over, my mind is still stress.

Things have been such a fuck up for me.

The fight between Nurai is still not over yet.

I just don’t get what is wrong.

Is there anything wrong being the same?

I know that once someone looks the same, the attention will not be the same.

Is it the problem that you care about now?

I already say that I will change and I will.

You will never see me in your hairstyle anymore.

How do you feel when people say that you have no originality?

Every life has its own style.

I am closing that topic from now on.

I will forget everything about it.

Now, I just can’t imagine that our own friend has change.

You used to be with us but then you drifted apart.

You are on their side then being on ours.

Izzul, never did we imagine that you would do that to us.

You were our best friend and this is what you did to us?

Does making our life more stressful make you happy?

I guess that you are.

You have already made the fight bigger.

Do you know what we are facing now?

Do you care about us anymore?

You used to be the one that cheer me up when I am down.

You used to be the person that councils me when I am wrong.

But then now, you are always blaming us.

You ask us to imagine what others feel but what about our feeling?

Do you know that we are hurt to see you these ways?

Maybe you are feeling happy right now being with them.

I guess that you don’t need us in your life anymore.

Fine, if that is what you want so much.

Ouhya, thanks for telling us that Nurai spam her own blog to make fun of Elisya.

Never did I expect that a friend would do that.

My health now is not stable.

I have been eating medicine lately.

Every night, I would have fever and headache.

Eating panadol is so fuck.

Just now when slacking, cried a lot.

Imagine that a guy who you love a lot sent a girl home that is staying at Jurong.

Tell me who is not jealous at all?

He just gave me a call just to tell me that.

I was heart broken.

I know that is your job to send her home as a guy.

But do you know what I am feeling?

I cry the first thing when I know that.

I cry because I love you.

You know that do you?

Sayangs were all worried about me.

After crying for a long time, we decided to walk to a cave.

On the way there, I vomit.

I did not know why I vomit out everything that I had eaten.

I was feeling drowsy.

Show my hands to Atasha and she was shocked to see it pale white.

My body was damn weak and it was hard to move.

People there were having so much fun with each other.

Especially Haiqul and Elisya.

Together-together.

I have no mood to post anymore.

I am waiting for him to message me.

Should I message him or should I wait?

I am confused now!

Please help me!

Anyway, Happy Anniversary to Deena and Dan.

Hahas, I know that it is still early.

Just happy to see couple who is lovely.

I am going to spent the whole day tomorrow going out with Atasha.

She is meeting all her friends and I am so following.

Chow people!

I'm Saying Goodbye

2009-10-14T19:19:00.002+08:00

I am scared of dying.

To those people out there who care for me, let me say goodbye.

I have a feeling that I won’t leave long anymore.

Well, I did not want to tell any of you this.

Only Atasha sayang know about me.

Now I want to tell you guys that my body does not have enough blood.

I am weak for now.

Loosing too much blood will make me die faster.

When you look at your own palm, the color will be red.

But mine is always pale white.

Whenever it is cold, then my hand will be red.

I don’t know what is wrong with me.

Just now, Atasha slap me and I started to bleed a lot.

I am not joking about this.

You don’t believe me than ask her yourself.

Goodbye to those who I love.

Maybe I won’t be staying for too long.

Take care of yourself ok?

BOREDNESS !

2009-10-11T14:10:00.014+08:00

Pictures were taken today due to boredness.

I had a chat with Shasha sayang.

Yeah, both of us feel the same thing.

Our loves are always being played around.

Well, we are kind of jealous to people who can last long.

Having to be in love is a nice thing.

Having to be alone is hard.

These pictures really is what I am feeling now.

To those who are happily attached, I hope that you guys last long.

Don't ever play with your love one's heart.

Always remember to love them with all your heart.

All the best in your relationship.

How Could You ?

2009-10-08T22:15:00.001+08:00

Those pictures were taken on Wednesday at Little Guilin.

I was tired yesterday to post.

So I decided to put up at long post today.

I had a lot of fun with sayangs.

Nurai.

On Wednesday morning, you sent Elisya a message.

Your message says:

Elisya, in the morning just now I was pissed at you.

That’s why I like never entertain you.

I was angry because you and Dian tie the same hairstyle as me.

I don’t like it, seriously.

All I can say is just stop doing same things like me.

I’m not sure if its coincidence but I’m just speaking out what I want to say.

Don’t get angry eh.

Sorry.

What do you think after reading back that message?

How do you think that me and Elisya felt?

You did not use any harsh words on us but that is not a nice thing.

Why can’t you just “buat bodoh” with us?

In the morning, Elisya told me that Nurai post something about us.

So after reaching Elisha’s house, I went to check.

I have nothing else to say to you anymore.

I don’t know what you treat me and Elisya as anymore.

On Tuesday, 06 October 2009 you post:

Firstly, I want to apologies to Elisya and Dian.

Babes, I’m sorry ok.
I’m sorry if my words harsh or what.

I just want to speak out you see.
Being honest is the best than rather having me talking behind your backs.
By now, you should have hate me.

But all I’m doing is speaking out the facts.
If I am wrong, please tell me.

I’m really sorry.

I just don’t like it when you do that.
I mean like, doing same things like me.

I don’t mind if you want to copy but, there is an extend to it.

If I were to list the things you copy, there is a lot.
Did I get angry to you before?

Until just now than I could not stand it any longer.
Please, just please, have your own originality.

If it is just one or two, I don’t mind.
I don’t know if its coincidence or not.

If Everytime its coincidence, I dun think so.
But then if one or two time, than it is ok.

Sorry if I’m wrong.

Or maybe I am.
Once again, I’m sorry for my harsh words.

Hahas, wasn’t that such a sweet thing to put at your blog for EVERYONE to read?

I know that bog is for you to post your feelings.

There is such word called confidential.

I am 100% confirm that you should know that word.

Since you want to post at your blog then I can do the same thing.

I have no one to express my feelings to so my blog can listen to it.

Oh, I’m sorry if people can read it.

I have my own originality.

Tying up a simple hairstyle and you are pissed off?

It is such a small matter.

You can just “buat bodoh” but then you bring it up.

This is not the first time that we fought.

Maybe me, Elisya and Fazila have already been in the patience mood for too long.

When you pick up fights with us, we just keep quiet.

For your information, is not that you are afraid of you but we do not want to waste out time.

These kinds of stuffs are immature.

Fighting over a small matter.

Why other people can do “YOUR” hairstyle and we can’t?

Why only us that can’t?

Does our hair have any problem?

Even if we tie up our hair that way does it make your life difficult?

Your world is your own originality.

My world has my own originality.

Since we are not from the same world, it means that I have my own originality.

Anyway, friends never ever fight because of small things.

They should stick to each other together.

Are we your friend anymore?

You say that being honest is the best right?

You said that you don’t want to talk behind our back right?

Then what is all the posting about?

Isn’t that talking behind our back also?

If you are really so pissed off at us why can’t you just talk to us?

Elisya and I am human being.

We don ever favor human meat.

If other people can tie their hair just like you and be normal then so can we.

Elisya and I have been tying this hairstyle since long time ago.

I never copyright you.

Since you want so much for us to change our hairstyle, than we will do as you wish.

I know that you are too pretty that’s why we can’t follow you.

Why do you have a friend called tweeney when she can’t do the same hairstyle as you?

No damn use!

I really have nothing else to say to you anymore.

I never make your life difficult at all but you made ours.

I hope that you are happy with you outcome.

Never did we ever believe that you are that kind of person.

Maybe what [insertname] says about you is right.

You just want all the attention to yourself.

Goodbye.

So today took many pictures at Elisya’s house.

We did many fun things there.

I am tired and no mood to post.

I am just going to let the pictures do all the talking.

I just hope that in future, friends will not be these way.

Examinations have arrived and we have no time to fight.

We can settle it after all the exams have finish.

So think carefully.

This are just some of the pictures.

I am damn tired.

I need some time to rest and get my beauty sleep.

I will continue to post the rest of the pictures tomorrow.

Happy Times With Friends

2009-10-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

I have no mood to post today.

I am so sorry.

I still have to study for the examinations.

Just let the pictures do the talking for my day.

Anyway, good luck to all my friends for you examinations.

I hope that you guys will pass.

Study hard and play harder ok?

I love you so much! <3

I miss my sayangs very much.

I want them in my hands now.

I need love bahbey.

Show me the love you got!

My Missing Moments

2009-10-03T16:30:00.001+08:00

It has been days since I post!

Oh my god!

Hahas, I was busy with personal things.

No need to know.

I just woke up at 2 p.m.

I was tired from yesterday’s house visiting.

We went to Uncle Yazid’s house at Punggol.

His house was the furthest house.

So my family was the second last family to reach.

Sister had to go back to primary school for an event.

I spent my time in the car messaging.

Reach there and went to the boys room.

Wow!

The place was very chaotic.

All my dearest cousins were playing guns and yoyo.

Gosh, I miss them so much!

Then suddenly they decided to play fireworks.

They tagged me along but I was not interested.

I’m so sorry sayangs.

I was not feeling well so please understand.

I was alone in the air-condition room.

I was able to just relax and think.

Then Danial came to the room.

I miss him so damn much!

He played with guns and shoots my head.

Ouch!

Pain you know.

Hahas, it was fun to play with your own cousin.

Then blablabla.

I don’t know what to say anymore.

I was damn tired and sleepy.

Danial is also tired and sleepy.

Oh my god!

I forget to ask Danial for his number.

Gosh, I’m so sorry Fatin.

Maybe next time.

I am currently chatting with Danial Tang.

Maybe later I’m going to finish my coursework section E.

Miss Tay says that disciplinary actions will be taken.

I want to score for Home Econ.

I am missing girlfriends Elisya, Fazila, Atasha, Adilla, and Nurai.

I am missing boys Razzif and Danial.

You guys are the people that can make me happy.

I love you guys so damn much with all my heart.

P/S [ Girlfriends ]

Thanks for everything that you show me. I love you guys very much with all my heart. Never in life have I ever regretted knowing you guys. Seriously, you are my true best friend. Good luck for your final year examination. I hope that you guys can pass well and not be scolded. Last long to you guys who are attached. To those who are single, you know that you will always have me by your side forever. Anyway, one day later we are sure to be shopping right? I’m looking forward to that day bahbey! I love you so much! <3

P/S [ Razzif ]

When are you going to top up? I want to message with you. I am bored here. You say that I can message you when I am bored but then you can’t reply. Aww, Nanan is sad to know that you don’t have prepaid. Never mind, I will wait for you to top up. Anyway, good luck for you examination too! Streaming this year so you must study hard ok? I love you. <3

P/S [ Danial ]

I miss you so much! Thanks for making me happy all these while. I really love you! Good luck for your examination. You are also having your streaming so you must study hard ok? Anyways, happy birthday Danial! I know that it is still early but then I can’t wait to celebrate with you! I love you. <3

Daily Rountine [ SINGLE ]

2009-09-17T20:01:00.006+08:00

NananSewel was bored urhkay

Mood check: untold.

I don’t know what I am feeling today.

Many things happen.

I am having stupid feelings.

Well, normal routine of each day.

After meeting up with sayangs (Elisya and Fazila), went to Bukit Batok Interchange.

Sited down and had a talk with girlfriends.

They are my bitches in my life that made me happy.

While talking, laughing and staring at a couple, I was messaging K”.

Hahas, he is always making me smile.

Thanks for making my day brighter.

But still, is because of my girlfriends.

K”: You kt manerh tu ? ..

Nanan: I kt Bukit Batok Interchange .. Mcm biasa kt depan Buzz .. Then ue plaq ? ..

K”: I dekat dalam bus .. Dh nak sampai .. You nanti naek 189 ? ..

Nanan: Ok. Hmm , maybe .. I pun tak tahu .. I just ikut dierh orng ..

Then suddenly bus 189 reached.

Aww, so I can’t go school with him.

It is ok because I still have Fazila, Shukry, Elisya and Rozaini.

They are my sayangs and brothers.

We reached playground early so decided to hang around.

I and sayangs sit on the floor while brothers stand.

Chat for awhile and keep on laughing.

Thanks people for making me smile and happy.

Lessons at school were always damn bored.

None of them had interest me.

Boring!

I have nothing much to elaborate anymore.

After school we waited for Shukry and Rozaini.

Nothing for me la I guess.

Haish, why must things always be like these?

My life is just so fuck.

After meeting them, we walk to playground.

As usual, I would always walk alone while the rest walk with their sayang.

Nanan will always be solo, haish.

Whenever I’m alone, I will start to feel sad.

But whatever my feelings maybe, I don’t want my sayangs to know about it.

I don’t want to destroy dierh happiness again.

I don’t want to be the red light in their traffic post.

I want my sayangs to be happy without me there.

Reached playground so quickly put begs down.

We took money and bought food to eat.

I bought Red Bull with sweets.

I need back my happiness.

Then Shukry sit with Fazila.

Next, Elisya sit with Rozaini.

Yeah, there are sweet.

Nanan sitting there was super duper jealous.

Why they can be happy with their boyfriend while I can’t?

Why can they receive love while I can’t?

Why must things be unfair for me?

Must I suffer all these?

Haish, never mind la.

Maybe this is my fate.

I must accept this fate.

But please, I hope that it will never continue.

Many things happen when we are lepak-ing.

You don’t need to know about it.

You phony little puppet!

Fuck off!

Well went home with Fazila, Elisya and Rozaini.

Then later took the same lrt with Rozaini.

He alight at Teck Whye.

Nanan alight at Pending.

I then decided not to go home.

I stayed at grandmother’s house.

Reached there and greet the people there.

The house was so damn quiet.

Aunt Molly told me that she has something.

It was a small kitten!

It was so damn fucking cute!

I played with it the whole day.

So now I am here posting about what happen.

I am currently chatting with Elisya, Atasha, Danial Tang, Sulaime, HaZz and Irfan.

Ask my sayangs a question.

Would you be hurt if you see someone that you love kiss in front of you with your girlfriend?

They were shocked that I ask that question.

Well, that was just a stupid random question.

Don’t think that it happens to me ok?

Even though if it did, I will never ever tell you.

Well, I want to continue doing my stupid homework.

There are Geography , English and Malay.

Nanan, you need to bulk up with your studies.

Don’t ever make reasons to not study.

P/S (Hubby)

Sayang, why are you like these to me? Do you know that I have been suffering all because of you? I just don’t know what wrongs that I have done to you. But whatever it is, I still want you to know that I sill love you with my whole heart.

P/S (Elisya & Rozaini)

Congrats for making it to this far sayangs. I know that you are happy because you had done things with each other. Rozaini, please last long with Elisya ok? You must promise me that you will love her with you whole heart. 210709 & 291B.

P/S (Fazila & Shukry)

Yeah, still the sweetest couple that I have seen. Yaw, you must last long ok? I have already seen the actions that both of you had done to each other and I swear that is so damn fucking sweet. Love each other with you heart ok? 210809 will last forever.

My Dearest Aidil Haziq Bahbey

2009-09-16T19:39:00.004+08:00

I’m so sorry for not posting for days.

Yeah, I know that is my fault.

But then stupid blog was spoilt so I can’t do anything.

Hope that you don’t mind.

Well anyways, many things happen during these few days.

I have no idea if they are good or bad.

But to me, is just both.

I’m in a situation that no one has ever gone through.

School was just as normal.

I would always go school with sayangs.

Wanna know my sayangs ?

There are Elisya, Fazila, Shukry and Rozaini.

Well, so what if they are boys?

Get this straight to you heart ok?

Fazila is Shukry ownage so bicthes just FCUK OFF!

Elisya is Rozaini ownage so bitches just FCUK OFF!

Don’t you ever dare to lay your fingers on them!

They are all my ownage.

FCUK OFF!

I love them to the core.

I just have to say that today was the worst day ever.

Why must my life be this way?

Why can’t I just lead a happy life just like the others?

My heart has been torn up into a million pieces.

To dearest A, why must you made me suffer?

I thought that you say you love me?

Love me?

I don’t think so ok?

Love does not mean like these.

You should know more than me right?

Then why must you treat me this way?

Is it for fun?

I have already cried a million tears for you.

You did not just make me sad but you also made my friends sad.

I can’t see my friends suffering along with me.

I would rather suffer alone than making anyone suffer along.

If you want to break of our relationship then think about it.

I gave you everything but you just destroy it just like that.

I am fine if you want to message with other bitches, but don’t make me suffer.

I really love you and I still do.

I have nothing else to say.

I have enough suffering for today.

I just miss all my girlfriends.

Elisya, Fazila, Atasha, Adilla and Nurai.

Babes, I love you to the core!